Monday, August 22, 2011

Ten Years Since My Prostate Cancer Surgery

It’s been ten years. I’m uncomfortable with calling myself a cancer survivor. I had a cancerous part removed from my body. So far, that cancer has not come back. But I think it’s important to keep it all in perspective. Here’s what I wrote a year after the surgery.

Scar Redemption

The surgeon made a six-inch cut
from my navel downward, removed an organ
peppered with cancer. Before the surgery,

I took a picture of my abdomen—
this is what it looked like when I had
all my parts. Over weeks and months,
I found myself fingering the healing
incision, a tingling reminder of the gash
where hands entered.

I have wondered when the scar
and its sensation would go away.
It was red and stitched,
visibly and invisibly. Later
it felt like braided cord. Then
upper portions flattened, smoothed
out, while lower parts remain
raised and hard.

A year passed. I think it will not
change much more. Now I realize
I don’t want it to disappear.
I want to touch my scar,
be reminded of what’s gone,
have feelings wash over me.

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